Just wanted to throw some new thoughts out there and touch base with a lot of you as i have been rather derelict in the communication department. I think i mentioned before that this is kind of hard for me didn’t I? Not so much the “speaking to you all” part as much as being consistent about doing so. You see, i get sidetracked pretty…. SQUIRREL!!… uh, easily.
A lot has happened over the past year to all of us on the personal side (not together, separately…) and things always seem to keep getting in the way of just doing what we know how to do. We’ve also been dealing with consistent craziness internally and on the business side of things that kind of hearkens back to pre-hiatus days. You know, those days of preferring to stay in bed with a pillow over your face rather than deal with anything? Hey, we all have them, right?
But seriously now, fuck all that. I’m really tired of being forced to deal with things of such minuscule importance to my happiness in the grand scheme of things … I really just want to play. This is how I deal! The time before reuniting was really special in a lot of ways for me, mostly in it’s simplicity. Write, record, rehearse, and perform with the people that you’ve actually missed more than you ever realized. These are beautiful moments. We all need them, and i wish them upon all of you. The rest is just insignificant horse-shit. (yes, i hyphenated that… It was deserving)
Jumping back into the game was never really our intention. We only really wanted to try and have fun. The success of WGTL was so amazing and surreal to us, and i just can’t be any more grateful for that, but at the same time it weighed like an anchor. The simple idea of trying to just be out there playing for all of you (which we could do every day if possible) really became a collective drain on us (some more than others) as it really forced us back into playing the game once again by other peoples rules (“we can’t book you here unless you are on the radio”, “we can’t give you enough to pay your crew because your single isn’t where it was in the charts”, “we’ll book you when another song is out” etc). Understood…. You’re welcome for the sold out building. That being said though, we have also developed some pretty stellar relationships which gives us hope that our new ideas of “how to be IME” in 2014 can actually work and are still extremely excited to try.
So you see, these little annoyances automatically force you to do something which is against the earliest ethic you understand as a musician … “wanting” to play, not “having” to. I admit, i am a total fucking child when somebody tells me to do anything. I thought that would change as I got older, but nope! Still getting my head around some of these feelings and i know, “shut up and fucking play guitar already!”…. I say this to myself everyday actually.
Enough time has passed where i really feel complete and honest in just “wanting” to play my guitar, hence my recent outbursts of creativity lately. Playing in Oakville recently gave me some affirmation of one basic idea: i’m a guitarist and a writer, i love doing both, and NOTHING will stand in my way of being what i’m supposed to be, even if i’m shitty at them…. I AM ME. It’s all i can be. And i need to do it more.
So putting bigger thoughts and feelings aside, i’ve been getting back at it in a big way. Sort of a pre scenery and fish feeling to tell you the truth, and it’s currently consuming me. We have recently built a new studio (The Mother’s Hip) that me and my brother are putting to really good use, and it now feels like music and creativity are my driving forces again, and i feel like screaming. Whatever sound this scream makes, time will tell, but at least my mouth is open.
Its funny, but when Chris shows up here and its just me and him jamming, it gives us this weird full circle feeling as it is how we started IME. Most of the music from Dig are riffs from that period. Just the two of us being together, playing with no real purpose but to make as big a sound as we can with only the ability and instincts that we had at the time. Nostalgia aside, the results now are really exciting.
As much as we actually prefer to have everybody together making music and having a laugh, our circumstances unfortunately don’t allow it. We play differently when its just me and him. We’ve been doing it since i was 13 and he was 15. Our instincts take over and we don’t really speak, we just keep playing and move as a unit to where the songs tell us to go. It gets my blood going when we get onto something …. yes, i still have blood, who knew? (no chocos here!) It’s great to stop thinking, put the cell phones away and just let things flow, always trying to play at the limit of our abilities. There are no rules. Heaven.
The other day we played and i went to bed freaking out and singing the riffs we hammered out. How long has it been since that happened? It also makes me feel like my own playing is getting better and better and keeps me striving to wring every tone out of my hands that i can find…. and i am gratefully finding so many new ones! The experience is putting me in touch with my capabilities as a player, and opening me up to discover more possibilities as a musician too. I think for my brother as well… He still thinks im an asshole though of course. (he’s only tired of me MELTING HIS FACE!)
So what the hell do we do now? Basically we have a really solid group of tunes shaping up that we are starting to be really satisfied with and want them finished. The next stage is starting to demo them so I can work a little deeper and get them into a comfortable shape for recording. We’ll have to get Byrnesy flown in to get familiar with the tunes and to start tracking too! Excited for that for sure! No timeline just yet as we are still jamming and I have this well documented habit of hitting “delete” depending on what side of the bed I woke up on!
Yeah, yeah, you’ve heard this before and blah blah blah…. (Yes i read the bitching on some pages, and shame on some of you for some of that other shit… being misinformed is a horrible excuse no?) but really i dont care. Things get done when they get done and its not for a lack of desire to do so… I can promise you that. You live your life, I live mine and hopefully somewhere in between we are sharing something beautiful.
But this is promising…. Very.
Another blog coming soon too. The ideas keep coming….
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